All I ask

And now the Priests won't let me in.
I'm sinking in the sea as they say their prayers, goodbye.
Just one minute, Father. That's all I ask.
Just one word he says. Sinner.

And now the Ministers won't let me in.
I'm hanging on to the cliff and my hands are starting to bleed.
Just one pull, Father, That's all I ask.
Just one thing he had to say. You're already lost.

And now the Pastors won't let me in.
I can't see it's too dark, this ride isn't going to last long.
Just hold the wheel, Father. That's all I ask.
Just one thing he had thought. You've been blind all along.

And now Jesus doesn't know what to do with me.
I tried my hardest, but now I'm dead.

We are all pennies

I’m sitting here,
waiting, dying,
staring at my phone.

I just need a call,
a text, an email.
    Anything.
to get me by.

It never comes though.

It never comes because,
you dropped me like a penny,
never looking back.

I have traveled far
from where we once were,
in pockets of strangers
to only be thrown again.

I’ve been picked up now,
polished and kept safe,
and not yet thrown away.

Still I wait.
for a call, a text, an email,
from the friend you used to be.

Waiting

I'm not so patiently waiting,
for the day that
I don't have the urge to
vomit.

Be it the medicine,
the stress,
or the noises
that still haunt me.

Eight pills a day,
they aren't doing shit.
I'm not that dumb.

They do, however,
allow me to feel,
everything
I've
ever
hidden
from...

Everything but the one
I beg for the most.
Happiness.

It must have been
hiding from me.

I'll just wait.